How do you accept yourself as you are, flaws and all?
How do you not focus on losing weight all the time??
How do you not feel a failure all the time, in what you eat?
How do you change the thoughts every time you eat something, that you are ruining you're chances of losing weight, to get to you're end goal?
How do you learn to love yourself when you have spent so long hating it and ripping every part of it apart?
How do you learn to take compliments of other people and not be thinking 'Why have they said that? Are they saying that because i really look a mess?
How do you stop comparing yourself to the lovely slim women that you see in public?
How do you stop the 'voices' in you're head when you are eating, thinking people are judging you for what you are eating?
How do you feel 'attractive' when you have done you're hair and make up all nice, and then still fat and ugly?
It's so exhausting all day, everyday going through all this! How do you hush all of these negative feelings?
I guess what I am trying to ask is, how do I accept myself as I am, when it makes me so unhappy??
When all I want to look like is this?
Gosh, this is hard work! But d'ya know what? I am certain that all this hard work, will be worth all the tears and upset in the end!!
